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Archive for January, 2012

Trapped!

It’s scary being trapped in the elevator even for a few minutes. For the first time in my life, I couldn’t believe that the 21st floor on the screen vanished and I was not sure where I was. On the moment I knew that the alarm button wasn’t working, my mind started to play wildly. I thought I was to fall, like those Hollywood suspense flicks where the elevator began falling uncontrollably.

During those few minutes, this elevator door looked like a scene straight from a horror flick

Not counting the minutes, I believe I was in the elevator for a little more than five and much more less than ten minutes. The moment I knew the alarm wasn't working, I thought of calling Phoebe. Praise God, there's phone signal in the elevator. But imagine the paranoia I felt inside for two minutes. That's when I screamed, "HELP! HELP! LET ME OUT! LET ME OUT!"

Glad I was in the 21st first all along when I was trapped. When I got out, I felt that paparazzis were all around me. Thanks, for the support and help 😛

And this what remained in the horrific moment that Friday morning. It looked as if it was waiting for its next victim. Would you believe I was about to ride in it again this Monday morning? No siree! >_<

Quiet Hopes and Silent Prayers

This little piece of paper has been on my wall for almost two years. Seeing the names of my friends  and family members I long to be in the Lord made me guilty as I have not been praying much for them these months – or for almost a year. I could still remember how I laid my hands on their names every night with great expectation and hope they would come to the Lord. Now, as their names were gaining house dust, I am still hoping that there would be changes in their lives.

I know how a lot of us expect too much when we pray. On the onset that we don’t get answers as quickly as we want, we have the tendency to give up. It’s because we don’t see with the eyes of faith. But what we don’t know, something is happening in the spiritual realm.

The Bible has been very clear that our battle is not in the flesh but with spiritual forces (Eph. 6:12). We are usually deceived by what we see. Actually, everything that happens in the physical is just a manifestation of the spiritual world. One way is through our words – there is power in them. Even a mere joke can become real. When we cling to what we see and loose faith on what we are hoping for, chances are, we won’t get what we’re praying for.

But I believe the time will come that everything that we have been praying for a long time will be done so suddenly, we won’t believe it’s happening. When revival comes in, things will be so fast that the salvation of multitudes will be so great. The people we have been praying for will come before the Lord altogether. But it will happen if we continuously and earnestly seek the Lord. But we can only do that if we have deep, deep passion and hunger for Jesus to return and reign on this earth.

I’m one of those groaning to see revival. I remember talking to a friend yesterday how we’ve been waiting to see the hand of the Lord move in such a way that everything we know will change. I’m tired of the architype church and society we’ve been raised to. I want a realy Holy Spirit movement and awakening. I’m tired of the hypocrisy we generate saying that by good works we win souls, but it’s only by the Spirit of the Lord deliverance and salvation be done. I’m tired of the restrictions we give to the Lord’s Spirit by setting a program based on human knowledge. When the Lord comes, He has ways we don’t agree and that will surely offend many. What we’ve been praying for in days, weeks, or years will suddenly come and happen – for I believe that this year will be a year of SUDDENLY.

Can’t for the Lord to come back, shake everything until He remains. I believe we’re nearing that season. Right now, we are at its “birth pangs”. For now the Lord has one word: WAIT.

We’ll keep on waiting while praying and worshipping. Just like the apostles in the beginning of Acts, they did not move and spread out until God’s appointed time. May we be granted patience and endurance as we press on by waiting for His move. May we learn how to trust in Him fully as we continuously seek Him with all our hearts.

When the time comes, I hope I’ll never be surprised when all the names in my paper turn to the Lord. Let His perfect will be done…

Redreaming My Old Dreams

I had never thought that after ten years, a dream would come alive. When I was in highschool, I dreamed of becoming a reporter. I remember our teacher having us make a short skit of what we would want to become ten years after graduation. I can still remember clearly that our concept was a Who Wants to be a Millionaire type. Upon introduction, I said I was an award-winning broadcaster haha!

When I entered college, I began to shift decision after decision. From advertising, film, I soon ended in BPO. I don’t know why. Somehow I realigned my priorities to find a stable job and earn a lot of money. BPO in the Philippines by that time was already a fast-growing industry so they hire people in just a week and salaries and perks were like stones to new hires like me. But that isn’t what life is all about. There is no such thing as a stable job and earning a lot is not man’s ultimate goal. But it took me a long time before I realized where my dreams lie. Just soon enough, I’m back to my first love: mass media.

Sounds ironic but I guess wherever the Lord wants us to be, we’ll be there no matter how far we’re led astray. I believe that He had put this dream into my heart and it sank deep within until it was reawakened. Perhaps, I got scared to pursue my dream because this kind of job will break me from complacency. During the first months I was hired into the station I am in, I was scared of what lay ahead before me as a reporter especially I felt pressure for I knew so much would be expected of me. I asked the Lord that wherever He really wants me to be, I will embraced it with all my heart. Until now, I am surprised how I’m embracing the field that I tried to run away from before.

Oh yes, the Lord moves in ways we do not expect. I believe He does not put dreams in our hearts that He does not desire. It’s just up to us if we will passionately pursue it or let it die in time.

I’m no award-winning broadcaster though. Just a watchdog who loves witnessing and retelling history as it should be.

Balancing the Scales: CJ Under Trial (Part 2)

Caption of this poster says: Hindi ako kulay dilaw. Hindi ako kulay bughaw. Hindi ako kahel. Hindi ako kulay puti. Hindi ako kulay luntian...Filipino ako, Ito ang kulay ko.

Now, who’s really saying the truth? When you go and listen to both sides, you tend to think more (which is a healthy practice). After dwelling in the executive branch’s side, it’s high time to turn the other ear to the judiciary.

Being in both the SC and Palace made me see both sides, but it was yesterday that made me almost convinced to go on Corona’s side: thanks to the crowd who had passionately expressed their support. I don’t know what prompts them, maybe CJ was really a good man. Yet, I don’t want to judge quickly. Perhaps they’re right or perhaps they think they’re right. But only the Lord knows what’s really behind…or in their hearts. All I could remember was that it was another momentous event in history…and we were there to see it.

Statue of first CJ Cayetano Arellano covered in black cloth...

 

Even Jose Abad Santos' statue was veiled in black...the former CJs in Black!

 

Crowd cheers when CJ comes out of the SC lobby with his wife, Cristina. Both attended the send off mass before going to Senate for the impeachment trial

 

The judicial couple now faces their supporters before CJ makes another momentous speech

Keeping an Eye at the Source

My mom, holding a bunch of apple mangoes from our backyard three summers ago

My mom is an everlasting giver. I don’t know how she obtained that spirit of generosity despite of the hardships she had gone through in her younger days. A retired teacher herself, she was a good disciplinarian in class and a good friend to her students at dismissal. But what she is best known for in our little town is her heart to pray. However, this impression had made others loose their sight in the Source of healing and deliverance.

For a number of times, her closest friends would come up to her and request to pray on certain events. This she would not turn back – but not at all times. There are a few moments when she had to arrange a few things, hence she can’t be available at a certain moment. The funny thing is, some of them prefer her to pray for them over a leader or even a pastor. But isn’t God not looking at the person’s heart and not the kind of person who prays? She would only sigh, trying to remind them to look at the Lord, and not at the person.

In our culture, most of us can’t divorce what we see to what is the truth. It’s like Samuel, who first thought that Jesse’s first born was the capable king. Surprisingly, it was the rugged youth named David who was chosen to stand in places of authority. We tend to look at the medium, but not at the Source. As we do not exercise our intimacy with the One true Source of Creation, we loose sight of who He is, and depend our faith on those whose hearts are close to His. But God does not only want the heroes of faith to be the only ones close to His heart. He wanted everyone to know Him more. But it would take a lot of us to struggle and contend for His intimacy as He is filled with holiness. Intimacy with Him requires us to be stripped of our pride and doubts. Yet, doing so will hurt us so it’s hard for us to go for it.

And even my mom, an arbiter of love and faith in our home, still struggle for it. “I’m old”, she would say, “and times have already hardened my perspective”. But God blesses her for seeking Him especially in the morning, when the sun has not shined in. What she does not know was that God is seeking for more of our inner being, not that He still does not know us well, but because He wants us to be fully His.

I pray everyone in our small neighborhood turn back to the Source of love. When that time comes, there wouldn’t be a problem for prayer requests. 🙂

Balancing the Scales: CJ Under Trial (Part 1)

Never had there been in history an ouster of a government official. So far, two big names have been impeached in the Lower House but the process was never finished in the Senate because of their abrupt leaves: the former President Joseph Estrada, who left his position because of the 2nd People Power Revolution and the former Ombudsman Merceditas Gutierrez, who resigned before the Senate trial took place. Now, another big name is going to be on the Senate impeachment trial on Monday: the Supreme Court Chief Justice Renato Corona.

We Filipino journalists had taken a keen interest in this case, mostly when the President himself began ranting against supposed alleges on the CJ’s actions late last year. One is his position as a “midnight appointee” of the former president, his non-disclosure of his Statement of Assets, Liabilities, and Net-Worth or SALN, and other judicial blunders in issuing “unjustifiable” decisions in big cases.

It’s something to be anticipated for the fact that it’s the second impeachment trial that had reached the Senate grounds (Estrada’s impeachment case was the first). Another is because it involves a high-ranking official – namely the head of the judiciary. Some people view this moment as too political, as this stemmed from the President’s disappointment on the judiciary. But I see this moment as an exercise of balance in the government. There is no such thing as a “constitutional crisis” as some perceive it (because of the “word war” between members of the executive and of the judiciary). I saw that no one is above the law, not even the President himself.

If there is a constitutional crisis, then there should be no impeachment trial and CJ Corona would have just been abolished suddenly. Alright, most of the 188 congressmen who voted the CJ out last December were allies of the President. But now that it has reached the Senate grounds, I can say that this time, there is no presidential or judicial ally  issue here. The Senators are of mixed backgrounds, and I believe they will judge with fairness. The fight between the house prosecutors and the defense team will surely be listened to by the acting judges. The process was still followed. No martial law was issued. Fairness ensured.

And Monday will be no ordinary Monday for me.

While every media entity would be on watch, there are huge chances that this would be sensationalized. Sometimes, it is in the matter of delivery. Sometimes, it’s in the matter on how the public was fed by the information. The word war that happened was due because these personalities had to answer our questions. We, as media people, had to deliver their statements as accurately as they should be.

People have the tendency to react immediately without weighing it. With the public being the judge, our approval or disapproval can create a variety of reactions. This upcoming trial is now creating a flurry of thoughts to the public, how much more on the trial days?

But however the results are, may we present it as clear and as accurately as it should be. We don’t want sensationalism. We just want to present the truth. We support in keeping a record of another historical moment.

We’ll be on the watch. One day to go before the action sets in…

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